Crossdressing Journey | October 2023
Early acces to sundays video, stories & shopping links!
A new face | A new era with my new female mask
Last week was a special week for me; my new mask arrived! At the beginning of the summer, my wife and I made a choice from the various options and ultimately chose the Carmen model of CreaFx.
Yesterday the time has finally come; I could try it out for the first time!
Time for a small party that calls for a festive outfit 🎉
Afraid of rejection | A lifelong story
Expressing my cross-dressing desires has been a long and yet sad journey for me. I've felt it for as long as I can remember, but as a child and even as a teenager, I never felt the freedom to express it. Secretly I sometimes tried on my mother's or sister's boots and a few times I brought boots into the house myself and hid them.
I have been afraid of rejection all my life because I didn't know anyone who had the same feelings and in my Christian environment I didn't feel room to express it.
When I met my wife I told her right away when we started dating, but even then I didn't tell the whole story. I told her that I had felt it all my life but that the feelings were no longer so strong anymore. My wife didn't really know what to do with it, but luckily she certainly didn't reject me.
Only last year have I really started to face my feelings and, with her encouragement, I have taken steps to buy boots, clothes, and ultimately everything I now have as a collection. Yet it remains exciting for me every time I show her something, even though she never rejects me. It's a deep-seated fear that diminishes every time I show up as Kirsten. I am increasingly comfortable when I am with my wife as Kirsten and also with me.
I therefore continue to challenge myself by taking steps and if I don't do it, she will do it for me. It is something that makes me so deeply affirmed and happy inside that sending newsletters like this makes me extra grateful and makes me hope that I can help many more other men who are stuck in this!
Behind the scenes
In the past few days, I had been working towards an afternoon off where I could dress up as Kirsten and discover my new mask. My wife came upstairs to the attic to ask something and saw my new mask for the first time. She was completely amazed at how good it looked and looked at me from all sides. It looks so good, she said!
In the meantime, she went to grab something and I was busy setting up a new setting for a shoot. "Just sit there for a moment," she said, "this is a very fun photo to take."
So here it is, especially for you to see for the first time;
Kirsten behind the scenes and what it takes to make my photos and videos 😉
My wife is joining!
Recently YouTube reminded me that my channel has been around for one year. A year in which I received many messages via email and Instagram from men who really struggled with expressing their feelings to their wives.
We hear that the Video Series I made with my wife helps men and women a lot, but at the same time, there are of course also many other questions. That's why I asked my wife if she would like to respond to your most frequently asked questions.
So if you have a question for my wife or me about how we deal with cross-dressing in our relationship, how we proceed step by step or anything you would like to ask, please feel free to send me a message below.
Would you rather email or send a DM via Instagram?
Check these links:
My email (kirstencross26@gmail.com)
My Instagram
Thanks to everyone who joined my newsletter over the past weeks.
So glad to have you here ☺️
See you soon!
Kirsten 🖤
Hi Kirsten, I'm so glad I found and subscribed to your YouTube channel as well as your newsletter. Like many others, I can relate to your post about being afraid of rejection. I'm a female masker with cross-dressing desires for as long as I can remember. However, I only have a female mask and bodysuit along with several Hunter rain boots and Dr. Martens combat boots. It's not much but part of my cross-dressing desires has come from a woman's footwear choice. I think it's very stunning when a woman wears Hunter rain boots and/or Dr.Martens combat boots or any combat boots in general While it's easier to pull off low-heeled combat boots, it's a shame that not many men wear Hunter rain boots and California is not a state that rains that often. Living with my parents also makes it difficult to have much feminine wardrobe. My parents are traditionalist and conservative and on my culture, I can't move out until I get married. However, I'm afraid of marriage because I'm afraid of rejection from my future wife. It's really difficult to balance my desires with respecting my culture.